Kellbell0805
Tonight was a dream getting to meet @cdoty5 with @rickejill12 !! You are so fun to watch and were SO nice when we met you! I hope to see you again sometime 😃🏀

Tonight was a dream getting to meet @cdoty5 with @rickejill12 !! You are so fun to watch and were SO nice when we met you! I hope to see you again sometime 😃🏀

A First for Everything

Wow!  Well yesterday was an…experience.  I had a meeting with my roommates for next year so we could discuss the last minute details and touch-ups on our plans for our house.  As we are sitting there, Pinky (a guy on the track team) comes up to my roommate is also on the track team and talks to her.  He then makes conversation with me and our other roommate but focuses on me.  As usual, I give him a little sass and flirt with him just because I can.  By the time he was getting ready to leave, he said he was going to give me a hug because he could tell that he hadn’t won me over yet.  He got my number from my roommate so he could use his charm on me.  Instead, he was extremely persistent on how he wanted to come over to my room.  Being adventurous this last week of school, I said yes even though I knew what he kind of wanted to do.  It was all a little awkward since he only wanted to cuddle but I’m not about that life.  I just met him and wasn’t ready to go that far yet.  So instead we talk for a little while as I am leaning on him.  My friends then call me saying it was time to go to the Midnight Breakfast thing for finals week.  I tell him its time to go and he goes in for the kiss.  I gave him a little one and pushed away but he went back in for another one so I did the same thing…a little one and then pushed him away.  What he doesn’t know is that was my first kiss.  It’s extremely embarrassing but I’m just happy it’s done.  I honestly feel as if a big weight has been lifted off of my shoulders.  It’s still a little awkward between us but we’ll see how the last couple of days go.  I guess this year was better than I expected!

2013 NATIONAL CHAMPIONS!!! People said that this year was going to be their off year but that next year without Brittney Griner, Elena Delle Donne, and Skylar Diggins in the league that it would be all theirs.  Well, they proved people wrong this year and took their 8th championship home! Just wait until next year, they should be able to do it again.  If they can do it this year and only lose 3 seniors compared to the other schools losing more people, it should be in their reach.  Granted, the championship is always in UConn’s reach.  Kelly Faris, Caroline Doty, and Heather Buck will be missed greatly! Next year should be fun!  Bring on the season :)

CHAMPIONSHIP BOUND!  After losing to Notre Dame three times this season, the UConn Huskies pulled out a major win in the Final Four of the 2013 NCAA Women’s Basketball tournament.  This win sends the Huskies to the National Championship game, where they will face the No. 5 seed, the Louisville Cardinals.  Even though most people will be cheering for the Cardinals to upset the Huskies, I am a true fan and will stick by their side and pray that they are able to pull out the win.  This is a Championship that wasn’t predicted by anyone, but I KNOW that the Connecticut Huskies are more than capable to win yet another Championship.  Stay tuned for the final update after the National Championship game!  Go Huskies!

CHAMPIONSHIP BOUND!  After losing to Notre Dame three times this season, the UConn Huskies pulled out a major win in the Final Four of the 2013 NCAA Women’s Basketball tournament.  This win sends the Huskies to the National Championship game, where they will face the No. 5 seed, the Louisville Cardinals.  Even though most people will be cheering for the Cardinals to upset the Huskies, I am a true fan and will stick by their side and pray that they are able to pull out the win.  This is a Championship that wasn’t predicted by anyone, but I KNOW that the Connecticut Huskies are more than capable to win yet another Championship.  Stay tuned for the final update after the National Championship game!  Go Huskies!

Wow, It Has Been Awhile

Holy cow!  It has been forever since I have been on to post.  I guess I have been busier than I thought.  I am still working on making myself a better person by not worrying about what other people think, but when it is all in your head all the time, that is something that is hard to block out!  I worry so much about how people perceive me that I don’t even know who I am anymore because I am trying to make other people happy.  I still don’t have that special someone in my life but I know that the time will come.  I just wish it would come sooner rather than later so that I know that it will happen.  All I want is to give my love to someone.  I have such a big heart with so much love to give and all I want to do is be able to give it all to someone.  This is something I have always wanted and even though I am still young, I want that special someone because I want to get married and have kids and you can’t do that at old age.  It is so weird to think that most of my friends at school with me are single but then my best friend at a different school just got engaged.  I guess I am just not sure of how I am supposed to feel about that.  Obviously I am happy for her, but when will my time ever come?  This is something that I am also working on.  Bettering myself is all I can do and all I can plan on doing.  Until next time….

DUFF

I recently read something in a magazine about a girl who published her first book right out of high school.  She titled it DUFF and at the time of reading it, I didn’t know what it meant, but by the time I finished the article I knew what it meant.  It means “Designated Ugly Fat Friend”.  You know, like that one ugly person that is hanging out with other really pretty people.  That ugly person makes the people she is with look that much more cuter just because they were with someone ugly.  Unfortunately, I feel as if I can relate.  All of my friends are so pretty and when I hang around them and we meet other guys, I feel as if I get one glance and that is about it because they are so hung up on my friends.  It is kind of depressing and hard to keep positive about when no one notices you.  Granted, in my case, they notice me because I am so tall with red hair.  But other than that, that is all they see.  I don’t like being considered as the DUFF but that is the way I feel with my friends.  How do I get out of this position?  I do not know because if I did know, I would get out in a heartbeat. For once, I want a guy to look at me because he likes me, not because I stand out compared to my other friends.  It’s a role that is easily played by many people and they don’t even realize it.  But I am happy that I can realize it and admit it!  Now the only problem is, that this is a role I don’t want!

Catching Feelings

I never thought this was something that I would admit…to anyone.  But I have come to terms with how I feel.  I have a major crush on my best friend’s “little” brother.  But how can that turn into something when he is my friends LITTLE brother!  I put little in quotations because he is technically taller than me but is only a junior in high school while I am a sophomore in college.  He is tall, cute, funny, flirty, and athletic.  Everything that I possibly want in a guy.  But yet he has had a girlfriend from what I know but I don’t know if they are still together or not.  He is someone that I have gotten pretty close with over the years.  But I don’t feel like this is a one way street coming from me only.  He is just as flirty and trying to catch my eye as I am his.  For example, the other day at church he was an usher and when I happened to look over at him, he saw me and winked back.  I can’t explain how many times I replayed that in my head because it gave me butterflies.  The fact that he did it out in the open for anyone to see was what really got me!  I always feel like his family along with mine, know how flirty we are with each other and are catching on that I have a crush on him.  That is something I don’t want them to ever know unless I know that this could actually be something between us.  We talk more than I talk with his sister.  What do I do? I know that this is something that I probably can’t pursue on my own and he isn’t necessarily on my mind all the time but when I see him, I can’t help but to smile.  There are so many emotions that run through me when I see him it’s crazy!  We go to the same church and I hope and pray every Sunday that he will be there.  And when he is there, him and his family always wait until my family and I come out of church so that we can all stand around and talk before heading our separate ways.  The good thing that I would know to stand true if we did end up together, is that my family approves of him.  He is one of the nicest guys and him and my dad could talk for hours, and my dad’s approval is huge when thinking about dating someone. Too bad this isn’t something that could happen right now.  It’s just getting tougher and tougher every time I see him.  If only things were different…

Best Music of 90’s and Early 2000’s

Some of my favorite music ever is from the 90’s and early 2000’s!  There are way too many talented artists that came out during that time period.  Unfortunately, those people now are about to go off the rail.  There have been so many scandals and reports about these artists from this time.  But their songs still remain as some of the best music.  Here is a list of my top artists and bands from this time:

> S Club 7

> Britney Spears

> Kelly Clarkson 

> Christina Aguilera

> Backstreet Boys

> N’SYNC

> Chris Brown

> Rihanna

> ATEENS

> Avril Lavigne

And this is only a few of the best!  But these artists are all my absolute favorite and even to this day, I will look them up on YouTube just to watch their old videos.  Too bad now I know what everything means in them because I realize they weren’t all the most appropriate songs ever, but still some of the best.  I love the 90’s!

It’s gotten the best of me.

I can’t believe I let it get the best of me.  I play on an intramural basketball team and have a lot of fun!  The people on my team are awesome!  But after my first game with them, I realized they depended on me to make the plays!  Not necessarily scoring because I would rather make the assist than score, but to help move the game in our direction.  I was honored that they thought of me like that and wanted to have the ball in my hands when it was time for a game winning shot.  But, unfortunately, tonight, I realized it is getting to me head and is probably the reason for my poor play tonight.  I played awful and I showed it.  I used to never swear and have gradually started to pick up this habit.  Tonight, I found myself cursing out loud when I did something wrong.  Not only did I let my team’s praises get to my head, something that I NEVER wanted to do, but I found myself cursing and showing myself in a bad light.  I always took pride for never swearing but didn’t find it that big of a deal when I did.  Now I realized I have completely changed into something I didn’t want to be.  With the way I acted tonight, I acted like a selfish, self-pitying basketball player with a bad mouth.  But that is all about to change.  In our next game, I am just going to go out there and play my game and not worry about making all the plays.  I am also going to try and not take it all so seriously when we lose because it’s just intramurals.  I can still be competitive and have a different attitude.  I want to go back to that humble player I used to be, with a clean mouth.  I will also not swear anymore for I have found that it has already become a bad habit and is something that could get me in trouble very soon.  My life started to turn in the wrong direction, but I am determined to turn right back around!  And it all…starts…NOW!

Wish List

I have just been in the mood to complain about everything I don’t have instead of what I do have.  But this is gonna be one of those posts!  This is gonna be a post of what I want in a boy (aka the perfect guy) even though I don’t know if something exists.  Well, here we go:

1)  A guy who can keep up with me when I talk sports

2)  A guy who wants to meet my friends and family

3)  A guy who gets my dad’s approval

4)  A guy who likes me for me and not what I could be

5)  A guy who holds doors open for people

6)  A guy who isn’t afraid to beat me in a game of basketball 

7)  A guy who can make me laugh

8)  A guy who sends me random text messages when he knows I’m having a bad day

9)  A guy who picks me up for our first date and shakes my dad’s hand

10)  A guy who takes care of himself

11)  A guy who can take care of me

12)  A guy that gets along with my family, especially my crazy sisters

13)  A guy who is affectionate, but knows his boundaries

14)  A guy who supports my hopes and dreams

15)  A guy who has hopes and dreams that he wants to accomplish

16)  A guy who compliments but only when it’s the truth

17)  A guy who would stick up for me if I ever needed help

18)  A guy who is strong, trustworthy, and loyal

19)  A guy who loves his family as much as I love mine

20)  A guy who isn’t afraid to put his arm around me, even with friends around

And to think this is only part of a list of things that I want, but there are so many things that don’t have to be there.  You don’t have to settle for less but you do have to settle for imperfections, but that is what makes that guy that much more special.  I can’t wait till I find my Prince Charming because I know it will be some of the best times of my life.  If only it came sooner….